Thank Goodness..

For a 3 day weekend. I know it's been ages (seems like) since I posted something last, but hey, my life has been pretty dry, and there hasn't been a whole lot going on.Work has been great, and I'm truly blessed to have found such a wonderful job. I'm trying to decide whether or not I'm doing anything for the Holiday, and so far it's looking pretty boring. I have a friend coming in from out of town, but I have no idea how to entertain. Fireworks have gotten old, and I really don't have much interest in watching them. I'm just glad to have the time off to relax!

I had a Dr.s appointment today and I swear my PA loves handing out prescriptions. I get at least 4 everytime I go. I do love her for wanting to help me though.

I got a major blessing today. I'm too tired right now to explain but I will tomorrow (or the next day :)

Ttfn!

Don't Let Me Down

Is the song I'm listening to right now. It is absolutely beautiful. It's be Amel Larrieux. If you don't know who she is, I suggest you find out. She's a beautiful artist and I have been listening to her since she started. I cannot wait for her new album to come out. I am also counting down the days until Maxwell releases his album. Two of my favorite artists. They are insanely deep and ridiculously talented.

On another note I am ready for this weekend to come. I am keeping Jordan again Saturday and I am thrilled! I kept him last weekend and we went to the zoo and I burned up and sweated, and picked up him, and he had an absolute blast looking at all the animals. But I thought I was going to die. Either way we had a really good time.

I finally finished IT by Stephen King. And I miss it insanely. It wasn't even that I just loved it so much but I just got into the routine of reading it everyday at a certain time, and I had almost become like "one" with the characters. Yes I know how lame that sounds but I don't care. Anyway, I have started on "The Talisman" now. I tried to read it once, but I was a bit too young for it to keep my attention. Because I tried to read IT once and I couldn't stay focused. But since I finished all 1100 pages of it, I know that I can finish this 600 pg one.

I would talk more (I have a ton of useless things to say), but my head is hurting right now. So I'm going to cut this short! Have a wonderful evening all...

Oh yea, I enrolled in Physics and then dropped it. I found out I can take the Intro course without the lab and it will still transfer so that's what I'm going to do.

Lol I just had to get that last bit in. It didnt feel right closing without me saying that. TTFN!

Yesss

Ok so it's been kind of a minute since I updated (I think)? Yes that was supposed to be a question but it kind of didn't end up that way. Anyway. So the last time I typed anything, a weekend passed, and I didn't get to talk about my family reunion. Oh what a blast it was! I got to see all of my family, and I mean ALL of them. It was the best thing ever because I hadn't seen them in so long. Everyone is getting so grown! The absolute best thing about the reunion though, was seeing my cousin Jordan. He has some sort of disease (it may be cerebral palsy, I'm not exactly sure), and he is the sweetest child on the planet. I hadn't seen him in ages and he is now 6 years old. His mother (my dad's niece and my cousin) was holding him and I asked her could I hold him? She told me of course, and just handed him to me. So I grab him and he just clings to me. At that point, I just fell in love. He doesn't speak much at all, but he loves to smile for the camera and give hugs. As a matter of fact anytime you say anything to him, he just smiles. I must have held him for over an hour. One of my younger cousins (she must be like 11) came up and I think she wanted to hold him. I just ignored her and continued to hold him. Lol yea, I was hogging him but I don't care. He was hogging me too so that's all that matters. The only reason I gave him back is because my dad was ready to go. Either way, I took his mother's number and I told her I wanted to keep him sometime. She told me I could keep him anytime I wanted. Well this week I texted her and told him I was serious. So I am going to pick him up Saturday at noon, and we are going to have a wonderful time. I cannot wait. We took so many pictures together and he is such a ham. And on top of that, he has the most gorgeous green/hazel/gray eyes have ever seen. And I have never seen his color eyes on anyone. He was wearing sunglasses until I lifted them up, and he kinda looked at me out of the corner of his eye (his mom was still holding him) and I almost asked her if he had contacts in. Like an idiot! But it didn't come out my mouth so thank God for that lol. So I'm going to take him to the zoo, we're gonna get ice cream, and just have a blast and I'm very excited.

On another note, work is going very well. Sometimes I have problems staying busy and get bored, but it's better than being worked like a slave! But today was very nice because I had quite a bit to do, and stayed busy! Everyone I work with is super nice, and I have gotten to the point where we can all play around with each other. So I'm not in that awkward stage anymore where I don't know what I can say to anyone. Everyone is very laid back and loves to joke around. So things are going well there.

The only stitch I have right now that I'm dealing with is my income situation. Although I'm making more money, I still don't have enough to move out of la casa de mis padres. My ridiculously high car payment leaves me strapped! Ugh.. But I'm assuming one of these days that will change. *sigh*

But why look on the dark side when there is such a wonderful bright side? Yea. That's what I thought ;) TTFN

People that

Try to steal your joy are people that you dont need in your life. I have known this my whole life just about, but rarely do I put it into practice. All of that changed today when one of my ex friends and I got into it over nothing. And it was not my fault. I will be the first to admit when I am wrong, or if I get overly angry at something idiotic, but this is not the case with this person. She has her toe on the line of being a complete loony toon, and I have finally given up tying to be her friend. It takes too much work, and friendship should never be hard. Marriage? Sure. But friendships are not difficult. If they are, something is wrong. I got lashed out on for trying to give someone rational advice, and was basically told that I was a demon. People like that do not stay around me long. This time is not different. People that say things like that are obviously missing some screws. It bothers me when people constantly complain about their situation, yet they continuously let it happen. Dammit if you let someone run you over 1000 times, it stands to reason that 1001 will be coming soon. "Don't let it happen" turned into "You're an evil spirit", the first comment being mine, and the second comment being hers. I sarcastically thought "I guess I deserved that". I asked several of my friends to make sure that I wasn't in the wrong (like I always do; asking for second opinions to make sure I'm not being biased), and I won the vote unanimously. I have pretty honest friends that will tell me if I am being wrong, so I can go by their opinions. I got apologized to in the end, (I'm sorry, I was having a bad day, I'm stressed! please forgive me!) but all in all it doesn't matter. I accepted the apology, but I am going on with my life without her in it. I don't need that kind of negativity and I don't like people that thrive on drama. And it is always something with her. She's driven the rest of our friends away. So that's that.

Moving on to bigger and better things, work was good today. I am slowly getting the hang of things, and I don't have to follow anyone around anymore! Yay! The day goes by slowly, but only because we aren't very busy now. My dad also got a promotion at work today so he is quite excited. I am very excited for him.

I have enrolled in summer school. Physics. Please pray for me.

Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down without a thought
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle
to find peace
comfort on the way
to comfort
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love...

Fumbling Towards Ecstasy- Sarah McLachlan

Content.

That's how I've been feeling lately. I feel SO incredibly blessed right now. I love my job, and I'm so happy to have it. I work with great people, and the work isn't hard or tedious (for the most part). I don't know, maybe I'm just in a good mood.

I forgot to mention that I went to see The Lion King on Broadway this weekend. It was absolutely amazing, and I could watch it over and over again. I felt like crap this weekend because of my allergies (which are getting worse and worse by the way), but I hardly noticed them during the show. It was just breathtaking and beautiful. Words cannot describe how wonderful it was. Here is a preview of just some of the things I saw:



We saw a different cast, Andre Jackson (he played grown up Simba)is FINE by the way, And I would totally see it again.

I went to see boy number whoever over the weekend and things happened. Not completely bad things but not good things. UGH. I shouldn't have went over there. I knew better. But he tricked me.! I'm going to get off of that before I get disgusted.

I have been apartment hunting. And I wonder how in the hell I'm going to be able to move out. The cost of living has gone up since I have moved back home, and I still live in a reasonably inexpensive location. But with my salary, and my car payment, my student loans, electricity, cable, car insurance, blah, BLAH BLAH!!! it makes it so difficult. After a while with my job I'm going to start utilizing my current degree, and try to move into a different department. I'm already in the right place, I just have to work my way up.

Speaking of degrees (ugh), I have also be searching for classes online. Since I get off work at 5:30 it's difficult for me to enroll in summer school. This is the latest I've ever gotten off work during a day shift. I'm going to have to see if my boss will be willing to let me go at least 15 mins early on Tuesday and Thursday. If not I'm going to have to beg my professor to be understanding about me getting there late. I was supposed to take Physics this past semester, but my course got canceled. So now I have to make up for it. I have 3 more prerequisites to go before I can apply to get into PA school. It's driving me nuts that I'm so close, but this little extra 30 mins at work is killing me!!! ugh..well TTFN!

Memorial Day

Please take time to remember all of those who's lives have been taken away from us and respect them on this somber day.

I was going to go to the cemetary today by myself, but I would rather be there when there are no other people there. Not that I mind the other people. But I would rather go visit David alone. I miss him something awful. And I would like to talk to him without anyone else around. Plus i'll probably be there for a while. I'm going to probably go Friday after work.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day, and stay safe :)